Send out your ray of sunshine.

Today is Saturday.  It's a holiday weekend.  And most are out enjoying the weather and the time off by playing at the lake, down by the pool, or somewhere outside.

I'm inside.

Things have been going wrong lately. Why isn't life easy?  Why is it so hard to have things go our way every day? Is it wrong to want life to be perfect?

I had a conversation the other night at dinner with friends about this.  Seems like kids these days have this idea that life is going to be perfect and they demand for things to go their way. A positive and determined outlook on life, I'd say. But it gets dangerous when things go wrong. They don't know how to handle it. They give up.

How do we as young adults be a good example to the kids then in this day in age?

Damn good question.  I don't know.

As much as I'd like to be a "real" grown-up, I just can't get away from the childlike outlook of wanting everything to be right.  And what exactly qualifies as a "real" grown-up...probably anything over 5'4". Shout out.

A good friend of mine from Lubbock - who I've grown up with since we were in kindergarten together - has it worse than me for sure.  His mom - one of my mom's best friends and kind of like a second mother to me - has been battling cancer for a few years now, and it recently has gotten so much worse that the doctors have given her only a few weeks to live.

A few weeks.  How the hell can that be!?  She was just fine all those years she spent at the baseball field watching Brandon and me play baseball. But things go wrong and we don't get to control them.  And it sucks.

I wish I knew how to have some kind of positive perspective from this, so I could be a better example to my kids at church.  One of their classmates, and a brother of one of our youth at church, took his own life the other day. I want to be able to provide words of wisdom and comfort for the youth, but I don't know how to comfort myself when things go wrong in my own world.

I don't like giving up... and I don't like losing... and I really don't like it when I disappoint others.  And as weird as it is, I think those are the characteristics that drive me to be positive right now.  And I guess that's good.

Life isn't easy. God didn't promise us a comfortable, worry-free, stress-free, pain-free, confusion-free life.  Which seemingly puts God in a terribly annoying category with the likes of Spencer Pratt and oil spills. Gross.

But what I do know God promised me is love. And thankfully my mind and heart can understand that intensely and rest easy knowing that His love is plenty for me.  And when things go wrong, His love doesn't.  And I do know that I can love on my friends, love on my kids, love on my family as God loves on me during the hard times, and that that love gives off enough HOPE to carry me forward to a time when things will go right again.

Onelove,
Regs

"Well sometimes the sun shines on 

Other people's houses and not mine. 

Some days the clouds paint the sky all gray 

And it takes away my summertime. 

Somehow the sun keeps shining upon you, 

While I struggle to get mine. 

If there's a light in everybody, 

Send out your ray of sunshine."